Something told me to read Hebrews.
I was watching a show on the National Geographic channel on “The Secret Lives of the Apostles”–I absolutely love the “religious” shows on the “science” channels–and they were bringing up some of the writings contained in the book of Hebrews. Somewhere along the way the thought hit me, “That sounds intriguing. I think I’ll read that book next.” And off I go . . .
I’ve been struggling lately with, I guess you could call it “restlessness”. Its that uneasy feeling that either, a) “I’m not doing enough”; b) “I could be doing more”; or c) “What the h@!! am I doing?”
As most of you know, my life at the moment makes absolutely no sense in “worldly” terms. I’m currently not drawing a wage. (What the h@!! am I doing!) My wife hasn’t drawn a wage in almost two years now, even though she’s doing arguably the hardest “job” in the world–being a mother. (A damn good one too! Hi honey!) We’ve been living, for the past four months, on a portion of our meager savings while I’ve been shuffling my time between writing (I could be doing more!), fathering (ditto), and our non-profit organization Ds Connections Nw (I’m not doing enough!). Yet, I look back over these last several months and I find it hard to believe, especially from God’s perspective, that I’ve made a wrong choice. Continue reading Reading Hebrews/As The Struggle Continues