I thought I would give you a taste of one of the projects I’ve been working on over the last few months. This is a brief excerpt from my upcoming non-fiction/testimony manuscript, tentatively called “It Is Finished: So Why Isn’t It Finished”.
This comes from the Introduction:
For years I too gravitated away from these types of discussions, the exchanges some fellow Christians joke are “intense moments of fellowship”, because everyone around me just seemed so…certain. I’m not so sure I have ever been certain. (Would that be a certain uncertainty of certainty?)
At peace, yes.
Certain? Not so much.
Personally, I think this is a very good place to be, or at least it’s been proving so for me.
I think that it’s because, for years, one of the main problems I had was in confusing my uncertainty with doubt. And, though I still wrestle with doubt and likely will until the day I pass into the ethereal void, I no longer have a tendency to wallow in it.
Oh, I did. I had my moments, big time! But now I no longer so much doubt the existence of God or the tenets of my faith as much as I remain uncertain of just how big, how gracious, how loving, even how authoritarian, my God actually is. These days, I tend to err on the side of really big, and really gracious, and if I tend to confuse anything, I think it’s more of a confusion of uncertainty with…wonder.