Storms, Seasons, and That Occasional Sinking Feeling

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2 Corinthians 1: Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

Yeah, this post may be a little text heavy, if you can have such a thing in a Biblically based, Christian-centered, inspirational blog post-type setting . . . thingy.  You see, it seems like I’m wrestling with a bit of a confidence issue this week.  I’m going through a season of feeling very much like I’m not worthy to be called a follower of Jesus, a Christian, a Child of God.

It’s not that I’ve royally screwed up on anything in particular, although I’ve been known to do that in the past.  No, it’s more like the overwhelming feeling of coming before God in prayer and supplication, petitioning Him on a particular need, and thinking . . .

“What right do I have to ask God for . . . anything?”
“What makes you think God is even interested in what you have to say, let alone whatever measly need you may have?”
“What in the world am I doing?”

Well . . .

What right do I have?  None.

Luke 17: And does the master thank the servant for doing what he was told to do? Of course not. 10 In the same way, when you obey me you should say, ‘We are unworthy servants who have simply done our duty.’”

What makes me think God is interested in me? His Word.

Micah 7: 18 Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance?   You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.  19 You will again have compassion on us; you will tread our sins underfoot and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.

What in the world am I doing?  His will.

Mark 11: “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. 24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Acts 10: Cornelius stared at him in fear. “What is it, Lord?” he asked.  The angel answered, “Your prayers and gifts to the poor have come up as a memorial offering before God.

It may be something with, due to various family ailments and illnesses, church has been hit-and-miss as far as attendance, and I haven’t participated in home group for almost a month now.  Distance starts to set in.  Longing takes over.  A hole begins to form where fellowship, good relations, and immersion in the Word of God are lacking.  The Proverb, “Just as iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another” isn’t just Christian feel-good psychobabble.  It’s actually God’s truth!  It’s actually in the Book.  For a reason.

So at least for now, I’ll continue to feel unworthy, and I think God’s okay with that.  He’ll be present when I make my way back to our home group this week.  He’ll calmly pat me on the back and say in that still, small voice, “I know what you need.  I’ve got you covered.  I’ve got it all worked out for my glory.  Why don’t you just spend some time with these good people right here, get back into the Word and get back a little peace and perspective. “

Sometimes all it takes is to be reminded that He has it all worked out.  It’s just a little storm right now; just a little rain.  I know the common terminology is “seasons” and I’m not sure I’m really a fan of that phrase, but it’s none the less apt for what we all go through at various times.  Seasons come.  Seasons go.  They don’t last forever; though some tend to wear out their welcome sooner than others (Do you hear me snow in springtime??!!)  Even though all I may see are clouds, I still must trust that He has my best interest in mind, as long as I do my part as well . . .

Matthew 6:  33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

He’s got the plan, and has all along . . .

Ephesians 1: For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.

2 thoughts on “Storms, Seasons, and That Occasional Sinking Feeling”

  1. I think you have beautifully expressed the yearnings of every Christian. I am comforted by Hebrews 4:15&16: “For we have not an high priest [Jesus Christ] which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.”

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